HOW

           Funny word. How. Looks like a dream word to me. If you put it in a sentence like How do I? How can I? It almost seems like there’s an idea that one can actually be in control.
           We go around so much trying to figure out How. How to be successful, how to get people to like us, how to be attractive, how to be happy. It’s really the purpose of the dream life – to figure out how. How, how, how. Then once in a while something actually falls into place and we think we’ve succeeded! And so now we’re ready to tell everyone else how. So people start respecting you and feeding the illusion that you know how and pretty soon you’ve got a great dream happening. Why wake up?
            But then there are the rest of us. Those fortunate ones that can never really figure out how. And we can only know this if we’re really totally honest with ourselves. We might find little techniques that gain us a little peace, a little reprieve, but that too is fleeting. Do we really know how to find peace? Do we really know how to wake up?
            Wouldn’t it be easier just to admit to ourselves that we don’t know how? That we don’t know how to let go. We don’t know how to find peace. We don’t know how to wake up.
            It’s so helpful to really be able to feel this in the body. The body just obeys what’s going on with the mind. And when the mind is finally shown it doesn’t know how, it finally has permission to really rest. It takes a much needed vacation. And when the mind recognizes at last that it doesn’t know how, the body naturally let’s go too.
            This is true surrender. No-one is surrendering – it’s the body-mind that lets go. It’s very natural, easy.
            We all know how difficult it can be to surrender to a difficult situation or experience. There’s the feeling we just don’t like it, so to try to force acceptance or even surrender onto the moment is not a very natural, easy response. It’s forced, contrived.
            The truth is we just don’t like what’s happening. And when we see that we don’t know how to even accept what’s happening – we can then be OK with just not liking it. Very easy, simple. What happens to the “not liking” the experience now?
            The moment we recognize that we don’t know how to accept or forgive, something within us lets go. It’s that place of control. And the more we see we don’t know how, the easier it is for us to recognize that place that’s been trying to know how, trying to control. And we see it appear, and let go, again and again, less and less. And what is the one that’s aware of all this?
            What is the feeling when everything is finally allowed to be just as it is when there is no more room for a how? It’s stopped. Stopped right now mantra: don’t know how, don’t know how, don’t know how.
            Now, right here. This is it.